This is a strange season of my life. I went from office worker to daycare provider to vacationer to . . . . . ummm nothing. That’s where I am right now - nothing. I really struggled with it especially on the last day or two of vacation because I knew it was coming. I am not used to doing nothing. There’s always a project whether it be work, a new business idea, a garden project or some quirky craft idea. So I was quite anxious during the first few days of nothing, but I prayed about it and the Lord showed me that I’m really kind of compulsive about ‘doing something’. So, with a heap of humility and a submissive heart, I am using the opportunity I have to refine the art of ‘doing nothing’. It can’t last forever. There are bills to pay. But for a short time it is possible.
I have managed to fill my time. You can only stare at the ceiling for so long. So I’m homeschooling my daughter, learning how to make bread from scratch, producing a “documentary” about my backyard, weaning myself off caffeine, looking at Ebay far too much, and writing on my poor neglected blog. I guess it isn’t really nothing, but there is very little intention behind it all. Maybe it’s the lack of caffeine. Life is getting a bit more ethereal in this “altered” state and naps do come a bit more easily especially outside in this late season sunshine we’ve been having.
As read back on that last paragraph it occurs to me that it sounds like a pretty ideallic lifestyle. It is! It’s just been a ridiculously awesome blessing to be in this position even if it is for only a short time. How is that I deserve this? Well, the truth is, I don’t! What we DESERVE and what we GET in life rarely match up. So, I’m just grooving with it - for now. After all, what I DESERVE could be right around the corner, but my hope is that Grace will prevail.
